Coming Out Of The Murky Waters

Life has been moving fast and I haven’t paused to digest with you as much as I’d like. The same way we digest our food, we need to digest our emotions, the events in our lives, the expansions and the contractions.

I was recently bopped over the head by just how tough the earlier part of 2022 was. It’s always hard to see that you’re in IT when you’re wading in the darker waters. Everything feels cloudy. It wasn’t until I went back to Austin last month and realized just how much more myself I was feeling than when I visited Austin 6 months ago. I remember before that trip 6 months ago, knowing I would be surrounded by overflowing lovely goddesses and wondering if I would even be able to dance or enjoy myself or if it would feel performative because I just didn’t feel like dancing. Everything felt lethargic and heavy.

When I returned to Austin last month, it became an instant juxtaposition to my last visit and I realized just how much more the joy, the dancing, etc. have felt within reach for me lately.

While I’m grateful for clearing the dark patch, I know that those dark murky waters were a passageway to the person I was meant to be on the other side. And she’s worth it.

Can anyone relate to that moment of coming out of the murky waters enough to realize, damn, that was crazy while simultaneously being flooded with gratitude for being on the other side of it? Or where are my loves who are in the depths of it right now? I see you too, babe. <3