On Self Trust

The other night I was at a dinner party. The room was filled with sensational artists, scholars and accomplished changemakers. We went around the table and everyone wrote down and shared what we were releasing from 2022. The common theme: self doubt and negative thought patterns that hold us back. I was nearly certain I was the only one at the table battling this mental shitstorm but to learn this room of talented individuals was all battling the same inner demons, well then, fuck, there sure isn’t hope for the rest of us...

As I reflected on what I’ve released each New Year, self doubt was usually the theme, year after year. Always releasing doubt and calling in self trust.

While it’s still an uphill battle some days, I have noticed some deeper inner shifts over the past few months. Some things that have helped heightened my sense of self trust are:

I started making decisions for ME. Like moving to Austin for a couple of months even though it doesn’t quite make sense to the external gaze or in conventional terms as a mid-30 year old woman in a 4 year relationship that's going strong.

I started surrounding myself with people who I could be my full authentic self around. I used to have “spiritual woo woo sara” and “marketing powerhouse sara” and they never touched. This year I allowed them to weave together and I’m feeling more whole than ever.

I was able to zoom out and pinpoint that fork in the neural pathway road where I have the power to choose a self doubt downward spiral or a hype myself up upward swirl.

Evidence collecting - I started taking note of all the times my doubts got the best of me and despite it, I still prevailed, was successful at something, or grew in the face of fear.

My consciousness became more aware of the ever available self trust that is available in myself and the universe.

I’ve practiced detaching from the outcome and trusting that surrendering to the flow will always serve my highest self.

I see my neural network re-orienting toward self trust in so many ways. And the road is long and winding. A mindset prompt I aim to start each day with this year is:

“If I trusted myself and the universe today, I’d tell myself…”

What would you tell yourself today if you fully trusted in yourself, your abilities, and the universe?

Xo,

Sara